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Friday, July 6th, 2007
12:44 am	The real 300 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nexCyw8hYuk (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 4th, 2007
11:26 pm	I never thought it would bug me this much, but having a friend like this one move away really sucks...I know, its stupidly sappy, but she's leaving and I am really bummed about it. Oh well, shit happens. (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 29th, 2007
11:20 pm	Lesson Learned... Its sort of funny when you give people the benefit of a doubt, you think that even though you assume you know the outcome, you'll give them a chance and then every time you do it, you are proven right. Sort of funny...and sort of sad. Most of you know what I'm referring to, and for the rest, I'm not going to explain, however I guess today I learned a lesson about some people, one person in particular, and the weirdest part is that although it would easy for me to be angry, I'm not, I'm just disappointed at the situation. But, life goes on.. In other news, the BBQ was a good time, and holy shit was I tired after it all, and like every good game, the Ultimate ended in someone getting hurt :D :P. Current Mood: A combination.... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 16th, 2007
10:00 pm	Fine...i'll joint he bandwagon If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 7th, 2007
11:13 pm	If you don't like angsty venting/mushiness, DO NOT read this For some reason I feel this is my only outlet, so here we go, but please treat this seriously in your comments back to me. As of a recent, I have been kinda bummed out, I mean, no one noticed cause I choose to hide it, but having random but interesting conversations and joking around back and forth with some friends, it hit me, I am sick of being single. Yes, I realize that somehow the stars will align just right and I will hook up with someone...maybe, but the thing is that for me it has been 3 and a half long years since my last relationship, and in the time one might say I've been through a lot, but going through all the thing I did before, you come to realize how much you miss having that person to be close to, the person who somehow has the magical ability to make your problems not so bad, the only person who can truly give you the hug that really counts and really makes your day brighter. Although we all have our best friends that we turn to for help in our worst moments, and although I have an awesome set of those friends (if not for them the hard times I have gone through would be harder), nothing seems to be able to replace that little feeling of emptiness that you get from being single for a while. I have tried to combat my emotions with logic, telling myself that I'll find someone, and that at this point in life it could definitely be worse, but logic is no foe for ones emotions. No matter how much I know it'll work out (well, hopefully) it seems to mean nothing. I guess in a way (semi-arrogant you might say I guess), I also feel that I've done many things for many people, I've pulled through at my own expense for all of my family, I've held strong for them, and now that those times are mush less intense, I feel I sort of deserve to be "thrown a bone". Maybe things are meant to be this way, maybe not, maybe I doom myself in a way, maybe not, but it amounts to the same feeling. I am a strong willed person, I have a strong ambition to become an Industrial Arts Teacher and I love it, I have my life in some kind of order you could say, and yet, it's too orderly, having a girl in my life would throw a wrench in the works, change things, but i yearn for that kind of change, I'm sick of the routine of "school, work, shindig" as my dad used to call it. I'm normally not hit so hard by this situation, I have come to grips with the reality of it many a time before, and set it aside, but this time it has caught me very off guard. I've been more of a daydreamer recently, just randomly thinking of the old times I had and the times I want to have....it just makes me feel week. I'm Shanker Singh, I can have emotions, but I'm the logical one and always have been, I'm the one that people can rely on if they need something, with a take no shit attitude and the ambition to go places. Why the hell am I getting knocked down by these thoughts?? Of course, I realize that although I'm good, I'm no better then the next person, and emotions are a human trait, and so I know that I am just as likely as the next person to get pounded down my emotion once in a while, but dammit, I don't want to feel down over this kind of seemingly menial crap when there is much more pressing matters to deal with. Yet, I am, and I am at a loss of how to deal with it. I guess in all reality it will pass, it's a phase that goes in and out of anyones mind that has been in my kind of situation. As always, I don't need pity, just wanted to vent. Somehow the idea of talking about this to someone in person makes me feel like a dipshit, as anytime this type of conversation arises, I end up not saying much and chalking it all off to "it'll happen someday, just gotta roll with the punches", so that is what this online journal is for. I could make this post private so no one I know can see my weakness, but I trust you all and don't give a shit, so it's public, a little tidbit of what goes on in the mind of Shanker Singh Jr. Sorry for the wall of text, feel free to comment with your thoughts on the topic, ways you'd deal with it, and things of the like, but don't leave jackass responses please, cause I don't care to read it, thanks. Later everyone Shanker Current Mood: contemplative (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 29th, 2006
12:38 am	Wow....I'm Awesome. Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In May I bought porn for street_show (10 points). Last Saturday I caught a purse-snatcher who stole crywithme's purse (30 points). In June I committed genocide... Sorry about that, flailingmeekis (-5000 points). Last Friday I stole journalsr4sissy's purse (-30 points). In November alexea and I robbed a bank (-50 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-5040 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich! Sincerely, shankorb Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username: Thats right, FUCK YOU AKALU!!!!! :P And Scott, thats what you get for having a purse. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 15th, 2006
3:38 am	I like to post so i look smart... Alright, you are all smart people, so i ask.. If you were to give me the best piece of advise you could to help some aspect of my life, what would it be???????? (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 31st, 2006
11:21 pm	I'm bored, so I decided to ask this... How would you describe me??, and i mean, not in a huge long blurb, just in a few words? GO FOR IT. (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 6th, 2006
9:50 pm	Another Random Post...... After reading various posts made by various people, I realise that its interesting and almost insane how much a relationship can effect a person. You all have seen many examples of this, some of you are an example of this, I know I am. Its odd how a person can have such a strong effect on you, especially when part of you knows that you aren't settled down, and nothing is 100%, yet you act as if its going to last forever. I know in my past relationship, I never thought it would end, not to say that I thought we'd be happy together forever, but more that I never bothered to think about the possibility of it all ending. This year has been the shits for many friends of mine who have been in "beatdown town" as a result of a significant other. Even after 3+ years, I simply saw her face driving by my house, and I got that pity smile of hers, and then my day was ruined. Its like a weakness, we let a person into every aspect of our lives, and then they kick us to the ground, and somehow they never appear to be bothered, while we are left "crying on the side of the road" after the whole ordeal. This post is mainly to voice an opinion, but also to ask, why do you think we let this kind of thing happen?? I suppose its the everlasting journey to find that special companion, but its just shitty that it has to beat us down so badly everytime something goes wrong. For me, i have reached the stage after feeling shitty about one person, where i just fel shitty about the idea of a relationship in an sence. I have no hope of finding one now, mainly since i have no urge to look anymore. Once you get kicked down enough times, you just dont feel like getting back up sometimes, having said that, you must get back up, and you must move on, because the thing you are looking for is out there, and you'll never find it when you sit on your ass rotating...haha...look at me eh. Please, comment with your ideas on this. I'd say a humans greatest weakness is the person they love the most... Current Mood: contemplative (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 19th, 2006
12:24 am	Edmonton....WOW.... So over this weekend I went with Daniel Craig and others to Edmonton to watch the game, and see the party on Whyte Ave. Unfortunately, the rental company gave us a smaller car, so Scott had to go home since there wasn't room, so it started on a low note, but let me assure you, it was absolutely amazing once we got there. After 13 hours of driving there, the Oilers kicked the living shit out of the Hurricanes, and best them 4-0 (should have been 5-0, but dont worry about, if you saw the game, then you know what I mean). So of course the entire city was happier then pigs in shit, and also drunk by 9:30pm, so after the game, all the hockey fans took to Whyte Ave, and cheered their asses off, it was awesome. The only thing was that the police didn't close off the street, so there was a buncha them sitting by the curb, and if ppl so much as j-walked, they got slammed into the drunk tank. The cops were being hardasses, there was even a sniper on a rooftop with rubber bullets just in case and drug sniffer dogs in the streets to. In the end, almost 300 people for arrested, and i think 2 people got tazered for being idiots. The cops even smelt my coke to make sure it wasn't booze and then threatened to arrest us for standing on the street waiting for out friend. The crowd was awesome though, everything giving each other high fives, something you'll never see in Winnipeg. Imagine Portage Ave with the sidewalks filled with people attempted to move, but you cant get very far, so people are pushing, and the cops are watching all this, FUCKING CRAZYNESS I TELL YOU. It was definitely a site worth paying the money to see, too bad our trip was short as hell though, either way, I had a great time, and I have a buncha pictures to show the madness. I'm super glad I went out on a whim and just took off, even though I have stupid amounts of work to do, but what else is new :). Now, I need to sleep, but i've got too much energy, yet I work in 7.5 hours...so SHIT, and goodnight to you all. Current Mood: hyper (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 14th, 2006
8:11 pm	Another Question....... So, after a nice healthy family dispute, i have a question to pose to you. I do not want you to sugarcoat anything, just be like be, painfully blunt and honest. Does my way of speaking to you bother you?? Do I talk down to people a lot?? Is my behaviour towards you and others that you have seen good, or does it make me look like an asshole?? Basically, am I more of an asshole then maybe I realise, and I don't mean like once in a while, I mean consistently an asshole?? This is what i need to know, and once again, be honest. Thank you. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
11:15 pm	Good Lord.... I'm looking after my older brothers German Shephard while hes on his trip to Hawaii, and I thought it would be pretty easy, nothing to insane. BUT, dogs have mood swings sometimes, more then I would have thought before, and they are a little too used to habits. For example, if I so much as touch the leash, he jumps all over the place because he thinks I'm going to take him for a walk, which I can't always do. It's also more of a pain for me since I come home to keep my dad happy, and then go back super early, and then do whatever I do in a day, then go back to tend to the pooch in the evening. But it's still fun looking after Thor (that's the dog) even though he can be crazy. That is the end of my amazing story...for now.... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 27th, 2005
12:00 am	Question.... I have a question for you all.. The holidays are a busy time, full of all kinds of crap that people deal with to make everything perfect, but also, it induces various feelings in to most people. So I ask you, during the holidays, what kind of feelings do you have?? Happiness, depression, stress, loneliness, anger, energetic, anything at all. I'm asking this due to my having various thoughts over the period of this christams for various reasons, but i will save you all the pain of reading those thoughts/feelings and the reasons behind them. Any who reads this...please respond. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 24th, 2005
2:15 pm	Upon Reflection..... The following feelings/thoughts came to mind as the wedding took place yesterday. WTF my brother is getting married, happiness, envy, tears of joy (yeah yeah yeah, i'm a sap i know), WOW kelly and christine are lucky and they deserve the best (and the best for them is each other), and thoughts similar to "man, i wish i could be as lucky as kelly someday". Everyone who spoke last night spoke from the heart, of course my speeches came out jumbled but you knew what the meaning was behind it. It was great to hear all the thoughts that many people have about kelly and christine, it reminds you what awesome people they are and how they have effected many lives. I'd like to ask you all in LJ land, where would you be without these two crazies?? For me, I can't imagine not having Kelly around to hang out with or just to talk to, there is no one who i trust more then that. And even though i dont know Christine too well, i know that her and i maintain at least some extent of love for each other and we're there for each other just as me and Kelly have been. I know this is gonna sound sappy and all that shit, but i'm allowed to. I love both Kelly and Christine with all my heart, they ARE my brother and sister at this point, and i hope they feel the same kind of way about me. Your journey together is now just beginning and I plan to be watching/participating on the side lines for all our lives...with your permission of course. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 23rd, 2005
11:43 am	Today.... Today it is time for The Officers of Team Ackerman and Team West to join together and make a couple...then it'll be two Ackermans...together...sounds like insest :P. ANYWAYS...All i wanna say is CONGRATULATIONS to Kelly and Christine...may your loins bare many a child and may the fruit of your loins prosper..AND i wish you all the best in your life together... My little Kelly is growing up...they grow up so fast... :'( :) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 18th, 2005
12:42 pm	I just wanna say that yesterdays party at Dans was awesome, i had such a good time. Thanks to Dan for taking the time to do it all, and thanks to everyone for coming out and making it a party to be remembered. It gave me an excuse to bring Andy Gazetos back from the dead haha. (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 8th, 2005
12:24 am	I have determined.... I have come to the conclusion and this is a shitty year except for one thing. First the reasons why its shitty... 1) Friends dog died. 2) Friends uncle died. 2) Friends grandpa died. 4) My dad nearly died, and is in shitty shape. The one good thing this year.... 1 and only that i can think of) MY BEST FRIEND IF GETTING MARRIED (GO KELLY GO). (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 3rd, 2005
1:17 am	Question... Whats the best way to ask a person out if the only way you have to contact her is via e-mail/MSN and shes barely ever online?? I missed the boat of talking to her tonight due to hanging out with people...damn...but it was an awesome time had by all. Also, i need to learn how to dance to avoid making a total ass of myself at "THE WEDDING"....good lord help me..... (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 30th, 2005
10:16 pm	WoW Nerds Alert... I am making a guild on Illidan called the "Winnipeg Avengers". Its for anyone from peg city, friends of mine in particular. If you are online, /who it, and you might find someone. I'll be the GM, and the character name is Caitia. Send me a tell yo. CHANGE IN PLANS The guild name is called "The Band of the Hawk"...its so much cooler. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 24th, 2005
11:40 pm	Thats kinda long.... (6 Comments |Comment on this)